Chapter 1
It's 6 in the morning, the sun with clouds has risen
Allie opens her eyes to the window and a dirty pigeon
It's a tiny yellow room full of stories never spoken
A tiny yellow room of angels, and their wings remain broken
The bed she shares with Lily, and naked still she sleeps,
while the boys are resting on the floor, where green bottles weep
No power in the switch, no water in the bathroom - nothing odd,
angels spend their money to bathe in the holy blood of God
A few kicks, instead, and shouts to awaken them,
and they rise to their feet for another day of mayhem
"Right, do we have all? - keys, smokes, last night's nasty pain.
Yeah, that's about it, mates - let's go shower in the rain!"
Another day on the roof, spent cursing ants on the ground,
the night, maybe smoking in the bar, with someone new to be found
Lily's dancing in amok, Allie sits and stares,
the boys are kissing through the smoke, he's watching her from upstairs
Allie wanders off in thoughts, falling almost catatonic,
then his voice she hears and comes back: "This room's beyond my logic!"
Her eyes are blurry like the sky, her blood - dashed with fireflies,
but she finds her tongue just enough to tell him one simple "Hi"
"I hope your friends won't mind
if I take you off your chair -
they all seem swell and kind,
and we could use some fresh air."
The light was dim and not so bright,
but Allie caught Lily's eyes of hazel -
"We'll go home, you just have a pleasant night,
okay? And have fun, my little angel!"
And Allie showed him their wretched city from atop,
its broken bones and its crooked spine
And they stayed up there till the rain began to drop,
and him saying, "If you're an angel, then heaven is divine"
But she was never good at explaining
and he lived so misled for weeks
until he finally came to attaining
the true meaning of her friends' speak
If heaven was divine that night,
then his hell was rage and wrath
He chased her down to a street out of sight,
yelled at her to stop and stood in her path
"-Am I the lab rat in your circus?
Do I get some freaking medal now?
-Please calm down, I'm not your Judas...
-Oh, I would, my dear Allie, if you tell me how!
-I think you were confused about me, I'm not that much unique...
-Oh, what should I be confused about - that you're a worthless freak?!
And you all laughed at me, you did, I saw, leaning on that wall...
My little angel, she called you... well, I guess all angels fall"
Chapter 2
Allie, no, she didn't cry,
and he swiftly was forgotten
They were used with his kind
All he said had already been spoken
And one day a knock came on the door
The window was broken, the pigeon was dead
Among the glass lay a stone with a note saying "Whore"
But a lot sharper crystals lay ahead
Her sister was there, long ago withdrawn
Allie wondered, "Why are you here?"
and received an answer from the eyes that were smeared -
her mother was gone.
A house. Her castle. Now was just a ruin.
A king. Her father. Now was just a whoreson.
He went to the drive way to watch her arrive
and gave her a hug, glad that his daughter's alive
After her mother was sent to the dust
She saw someone she thought had remained in her past
"-So your mommy has to die to show your face around here?
Well I hope wherever you are now, you've become more sincere.
But I'm sorry for your mother, Allie.
-Yeah, I'm sorry for her too.
She never really learned to love me.
...And his words just rolled: Who would love you?"
Chapter 3
Soon afterwards she was back to that one place
where no one was judging and everything made sense
There was nobody home, but to the door very close
there lay a note, saying, "Lily had an overdose"
But before she could reach the hospital's gate
An angel came out and crouched crying in the snow
Allie stopped dead and went no further - it was too late
Backward she ran and lit up a smoke, followed by crows
The bones went grey,
and the spine was going to freeze
The river below was flowing away,
and the fireflies weren't at ease
"Who's that creature there, jumping in the lane?
Oh, yes, I remember now - that's me, trying to fly again...
But I forgot to remember that all angels fall in the ditch."
Then she turned around, dashed, and jumped off.......
