Happy Dirtday to you...

Lots and lots and lots of birthday guys this month. I wanna say Happy Birthday to Jade, AFI's guitarist, so - HAPPY B-DAY, Jade! Don't worry, I won't say what AFI did for me again, I just wanna wish him all the best and to hurry up with the freaking album, 'cause I can't wait!!! And the quote from The Cruxshadows is valid here too. Have a great day today, I know I will - after school's over, with lots of AFI and Blaqk Audio ^^

Yaba-daba-doo

I hear it's Thanksgiving day today? Well if someone wonders what I have to say about an American holiday that I don't celebrate, read along. Well, imagine that, our wacko English teacher said she wants the school to start celebrating it! Hellooo, this is not USA here! Does she even know the story of Thanksgiving? She said the students have many things to be thankful for, like the school itself, cause it's the only foreign language school in the region. Anyway, I still think she's insane. But if I could use this day just to thank for something (not that people need a special day for that), I would say 'thank you' to my family, to my friends for putting up with me, but mostly... the big 'thank you' would go to the ones who literally saved my life - thanks to them I'm not lying 6 feet under now. I've said this thousands of times and I won't get tired of saying it, 'cause it's true - yes, AFI saved my life, so thank you, guys! Thanks for being there and making that wonderful music of yours, it helps people! Happy holidays to you, too, and to everyone who celebrates today!
P.S. - Try not to kill so many turkeys today, ok?

6 steps of post-traumatic stress

EXTRA, EXTRA! New scribble today! Get yours for free here! ^^ I've been thinking of this lately and finally put it together. When people suffer something traumatic, they go through 6 different steps before they recover. I thought it'd be a good idea to use them as a scribble. Oh, this also belongs to the Untitled ones.

DENIAL - When you know they're gonna put you on their trial!
ANGER - How to return a letter when you don't know the sender?!
FEAR - What you feel when your world is gonna disappear!
GUILT - Don't you think all the blood has been unduly spilt?!
DEPRESSION - When you cry 'cause there's no use of your aggression!
ACCEPTANCE - When you're helpless to admit your own dependence!

First snow and Happy B-day!

Lots of birthdays this month... So happy B-day to Ville Valo, HIM's vocalist! If I could make a wish instead of him, it would be he would stop smoking and drinking, but naaaaah..... it would probably never happen... but one can dream!!! I'm off celebrating with lots and lots of HIM songs. Oh, by the way - it's snowing here!!! What a better present than that?! I expected it two days ago, but that will do too ^^

Yaaay, it's November 20, it's November 20!!! Not that anyone will see this, but I just want to say happy B-day to my favorite favorite singer of my favorite favorite band - Happy B-day, Davey, I wish you all the best, AFI saved my life - literally! So don't go anywhere any time soon, you and the guys have a few more lives to safe! The best thing to quote here is The Cruxshadows's song 'Birthday', 'cause that's what this band means to me and that's what they did for me and that's MY way to say a big THANK YOU! No scribbles from me, it's time for a real art. Happy B-day again, Davey, and have fun today!

And tell me what really matters
Is it the money and the fame?
Or how many people might eventually know your name?
But maybe you touch one life
And the world becomes a better place to be
Maybe you give their dreams another day
Another chance to be free

Western Hospitality

Went to an exhibition of universities yesterday in our country's f**king capital - the one place I hate more than my home town. It was great, now I'm even more convinced where and what I want to study. We were looking for the hotel where the exhibition was (never, in a million years have I thought I'd ever enter any Hilton hotel) and we asked a guy on the street for the direction. He just said importantly: I don't know! Sheesh... like he sniffed right away we're not from there and probably has a policy of not helping provincials. Half of the population there is NOT native, but once they get there, they turn up their noses. Hopefully, in a year's time I'll be somewhere else and will have forgotten all that. No new scribbles today, but don't worry - the minute I get angry, I'll think of something. Back to the capital - the good thing is I bought a book based on LOST and when I finish Witches Abroad by Terry Pratchett, I'll immediately begin reading it! Hey, maybe I'll write something based on my time there, who knows...

Old Scores

I'm high school senior and I'm overwhelmed with applications about university and all that crap. It's usually not a big deal, but I'm planning to study abroad, in the UK, and being alone, away from home scares the s**t out of me. I haven't been out of the country which sucks for me, but somehow I have to manage with the idea of studying away from my family. There is always the good part - to get away from the town you hate so much and the people who look at you as though you're an alien. That's what my new scribble is all about. Hope whoever reads like it.

Walk in the city of the dead
with no tears left to shed.
Put your thought in it now
as you're going round and round.
All your life you've been here
with many friends not that sincere.
You've pushed, you've been smashed,
you've kicked to the ground,
you've been battled, you've been rattled
with the most obnoxious sound!

Out of mind, out of sight,
prove them wrong - be twice as right!
Spin the bottle, see what it brings
Play the player, guess what it sings
Will you turn? It's up to you.
Will they burn? Just one or two.
Go and overtake your fear
Go, get ready and leave here!

Never, I repeat - NEVER, try to open a perfume bottle with your bare hands. 'Cause you're gonna end up slaughtering yourself. My thumb and my index finger went all bloody and the blood later covered my whole hand. I wasn't scared though - I was more angry at myself than scared, cause it happened for a few drops of some stupid perfume... It went under my skin and peeled it... Ok, ok, I won't continue vividly describing it anymore, cause some may not enjoy the sight of blood. I don't either - just my own. Which is convenient for a vampire-vegetarian... I think...

Yay, Obama won! And they changed my braces, and Obama won, and it hurts so much I can't eat, and Obama won, and I can't stand my teeth anymore.... did I mention Obama won? Well he did! ^^ Congrats to everyone!

Rainbows with no Colour

Yyyeeeaah... something's got into me and I came up with a very depressing scribble (yeah, like the others aren't depressing). Just so you know, it belongs to the Unfinished ones and it doesn't have a name (or doesn't deserve one).

Every drop of blood - for when I was alone
Every single scar - for another broken song
Every vivid nightmare - for every lost "no more"
Every little tear - for every nail in my head
Every dark room - for every word unsaid
Every closed drawer - for any monster under the bed
Every moment alone with my sorrow - for another colourless tomorrow
Every worthless day spent - for the ones I never met...